Still dealing with neuropathy that has stopped frustrating me and now just makes me mad as pissed off fire ant. Then I contracted a Noro-virus which came very close to ending me. Not in the best of shape physically that sucker took me down. And the Monday before Christmas my blood pressure tanked and I wound up falling in my kitchen.
The second I hit the floor I knew it wasn't good but I managed to get myself up and called for "back-up". Long story short I was admitted to the hospital with fractures in both my feet. 2 broken toes and fractured small bones on the top of my left foot and a fractured fibula in my right leg. So....already hobbling around like Mr. Tudball (IYKYK) and now I couldn't outrun a turtle in a foot race. Turns out the hospital was likely a Godsend as I had a mild UTI and my hemoglobin was dangerously low requiring a blood transfusion. My blood pressure was so low they couldn't give me pain meds for about 18 hours. But they got me back up and going even though the after effects of the stomach virus were still lingering around. They sent me home the day before Christmas and here I've been since.
During all of the above, I missed multiple radiation treatments which means those will continue in January for a while.
I am getting around at home with a walker as I have to keep as much weight as possible off my right leg and have finally consented to certain wheelchair rides when called for. I've also had to turn loose of a lot of pride and allow help when offered.
Since this has all transpired through 3 holidays trying to find in home health care or a short term rehab placement is proving difficult....but it's a new year so I'm hopeful that will resolve soon.
On a brighter note....today my daughter in law, Paula is cooking a "family" New Year's lunch and I'm force feeding black eyed peas to everyone with a mouth. I need a normal event for a change....my life has just been a relentless cycle of doctors, clinics, treatments and you can't "live" there very happily.
I'm ready for change. My hair is growing back and I'm actually feeling fairly optimistic about what is to come. Either way....I am ready and other than missing my dogs like crazy my days are pretty good. Every day at radiation, I see people who make me realize just how very lucky I am. Stark reality is a great teacher if you have the ability to look at yourself realistically without filtering everything through the lens of your own feelings. Do I get weepy? Yes. Am I sometimes angry? Yep. But I am also very grateful for so very much and I hope to be able to pay things forward one day.
Please pray for my friend Cathy as the New Year will bring her an experimental surgery that we are very hopeful for. Pray for Debbie and Shane as well. And pray for all those nameless people who continue to show up with hope in their heart that there will be a happy ending for them.
"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." -Psalm 46:1
God lifted me from my kitchen floor, He can surely reach you as well.
Happy New Year with love from me to you.
Lavetta my Dear friend I can't even imagine all the pain you're in. All I can do is Pray Pray Pray!!!!!! I Love you very Much. And I Pray 2026 will bring you Much needed Peace and Healing 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
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